Dance in the Rain
Welcome to My Journal
My life has often felt like a raging storm. A hurricane without an end. And yet God has given me joy in the midst of it. And through the raging storms and the intermittent drizzle, I’m learning to dance in the rain. (Figuratively, of course.)
Are Scars Beautiful?
For decades I tried to hide my physical scars, because they were ugly and embarrassing. Now I see that scars signify our healing and help us to accept the wounds that have shaped us.
This is What it means to Be Held
Natalie Grant’s hit song Held was written by my friend Christa Wells, and the first verse was inspired by my son Paul who died at two months old.
Why Doesn’t God Heal Everyone?
I left a healing service unchanged. The pastor said my faith was too weak. But in the not being healed, the crying out to God, the trusting him when it hurts, I have seen God most clearly.
Has God Forgotten to be Gracious?
When I am most discouraged, I need to look back over my life and remember God’s faithfulness to me. And as I do, I am often stunned to see all God has done in my deepest suffering.
But I Don’t Want to Forgive…
Forgiveness is hard. It often feels like death. But in the end it is more than worth it, as God unleashes His power in us in an unparalleled way.
There are more important things in life than walking
I had dinner with Joni Eareckson Tada and was struck with the beauty of her words and her life. She has taught me that surrender is an act of worship.
Me? Change the World? (maybe not today)
I was on a panel for my former MBA program. As the underachiever of the group, I decided to let my mind wander during the discussion…a big mistake.
Talking Myself Through Suffering
With post-polio, my strength is deteriorating rapidly. In my pain, I need to remind myself of seven things that put my trials in perspective…
Is Discerning God’s Will as simple as a green light?
To truly hear God’s voice, I need to be willing to accept whatever He says. And that requires that I listening closely.
Do I Value Sustaining Grace?
No one complained about the parting of the Red Sea. Everyone loves delivering grace. But no one is satisfied with manna, God’s sustaining grace. Yet that is the grace that tethers us to God.
When a jackhammer won’t wake your daughter
My daughter cannot wake up in the morning, even with an alarm clock as loud as a jackhammer. It’s hard to awaken her, but I persist in trying to get her up, just as God persists with me.
Finding Joy in the midst of suffering
I am convinced that our capacity for God, and for true joy, is carved out of our suffering. It is out of that chasm, that emptiness, that God alone can fill us. With Himself. With His joy.
Never Give Up Hope
I pull into the driveway, and I’m undone at seeing my camellia bush. This resurrected shrub has weathered many storms and has taught that God is always working, especially when we can’t see it.