Dance in the Rain
Welcome to My Journal
My life has often felt like a raging storm. A hurricane without an end. And yet God has given me joy in the midst of it. And through the raging storms and the intermittent drizzle, I’m learning to dance in the rain. (Figuratively, of course.)
What if the Worst Happens?
Replacing “what if” with “even if” is one of the most liberating exchanges I have ever made. I’ve seen that even if the very worst happens, God will carry me.
But I Can’t Feed 4000 People
God doesn’t only bless our work if we pray or have a quiet time. My time with God is not a favor I do for Him, hoping to get something in exchange. But if I skip it, I miss out on hearing His voice.
Where is God in the Dark?
Our lowest emotional points bring our most significant growth, our greatest dependence on God and our platform for ministry. It is in these low points that God does His deepest work in us…
Really? Grace…for them?
When well-meaning friends have said insensitive things to me when I’m suffering, I’ve been tempted to get angry or even walk away from the relationship. But here’s what I’ve learned
Laughter is Serious Business
I love laughing – it has gotten me through some of the hardest times in my life. Here are a few things that I have done to increase the amount of humor in my life.
Transitions, Wilderness Treks and Other Uncomfortable Activities
Transitions in life are challenging as we leave the familiar to go out into the unknown. But understanding one profound principle has helped me navigate all my transitions…
God’s Dreams are Bigger Than Mine
Writing for me was born out of a tremendous loss. Yet God turned that loss into something bigger than I ever imagined. Because His plans are always bigger than my dreams…
When Waiting Hurts
I went through a period of agonizing waiting, looking for signs of whether God would give me what I prayed for. Though the wait felt excruciating, God had changed me in the process.
What am I Waiting For?
I’ve never liked to wait but it’s in the waiting that I often see God most clearly and stumble on unexpected beauty when I’m willing to slow down and look for it.
Grudging Obedience and Extravagant Grace
I had been consumed with anger and bitterness towards someone who hurt me deeply and irrevocably. But as I forgave her, I was amazed at the freedom and joy it gave me.
Are Scars Beautiful?
For decades I tried to hide my physical scars, because they were ugly and embarrassing. Now I see that scars signify our healing and help us to accept the wounds that have shaped us.
This is What it means to Be Held
Natalie Grant’s hit song Held was written by my friend Christa Wells, and the first verse was inspired by my son Paul who died at two months old.
Why Doesn’t God Heal Everyone?
I left a healing service unchanged. The pastor said my faith was too weak. But in the not being healed, the crying out to God, the trusting him when it hurts, I have seen God most clearly.
Has God Forgotten to be Gracious?
When I am most discouraged, I need to look back over my life and remember God’s faithfulness to me. And as I do, I am often stunned to see all God has done in my deepest suffering.
But I Don’t Want to Forgive…
Forgiveness is hard. It often feels like death. But in the end it is more than worth it, as God unleashes His power in us in an unparalleled way.
There are more important things in life than walking
I had dinner with Joni Eareckson Tada and was struck with the beauty of her words and her life. She has taught me that surrender is an act of worship.
Me? Change the World? (maybe not today)
I was on a panel for my former MBA program. As the underachiever of the group, I decided to let my mind wander during the discussion…a big mistake.
Talking Myself Through Suffering
With post-polio, my strength is deteriorating rapidly. In my pain, I need to remind myself of seven things that put my trials in perspective…
Is Discerning God’s Will as simple as a green light?
To truly hear God’s voice, I need to be willing to accept whatever He says. And that requires that I listening closely.